Wednesday, May 9, 2012

To all these nameless feelings

Love, hate, betrayal, friendship, enemity all these feelings play in us. We are surrounded by emotions, they are like bubbling out in front of our eyes, bouncing on the canvas. Life teaches us some important lessons. We have so many feelings in us that we describe to friends, families, facebook ;) and in all of that there are some nameless feelings growing inside us. They are a specific emotion one rarely has for some moments, sometimes a mixture of several feelings, but not one in particular. The "nameless" feelings have no names, because they are so intense and uncommon, and have not been experienced by enough people in the society. Only one who is suffering from it can understand and relate these feelings.

These nameless feelings are constantly flowing inside us, confusing us, burning us, making us think what if? Its hard to ignore it, and even harder to get mind off it once it strikes us. It pulls down your mind from the current moment into some other place. Deep inside we know its time to leave these places far behind, but we never can. When we see someone we once loved, we get the feeling of love, betrayal, hatred, tears, anger all mixed up. A nameless feeling arises, forcing you to cry in anger with love. When you climb a mountain you almost fell off, again you get mixed feelings of fear, hope. Even when meeting friends, we can have nameless feelings mixed of anger, love. We cry out in desperation but there is no one to understand and comfort. We try to find a solution or the source of these feelings, but end up with fustration. It burns up one's ambitions and takes away all joy in life.

So, to all these nameless feelings, I cant deal with in my life; you've left me broken, bleeding. You've made me cry, you've made me feel the shame, you've made me angry and you've made me feel the pain. I keep asking why can't I replace feelings I find really hard to find? Now that its done, its time I find a way too look in between these dark clouds and if I don't its time to look whats in between the line because all I wanna do is get with you and make the pain go away.