To all these nameless feelings

Love, hate, betrayal, friendship, enemity all these feelings play in us. We are surrounded by emotions, they are like bubbling out in front of our eyes, bouncing on the canvas. Life teaches us some important lessons. We have so many feelings in us that we describe to friends, families, facebook ;) and in all of that there are some nameless feelings growing inside us. They are a specific emotion one rarely has for some moments, sometimes a mixture of several feelings, but not one in particular. The "nameless" feelings have no names, because they are so intense and uncommon, and have not been experienced by enough people in the society. Only one who is suffering from it can understand and relate these feelings.

These nameless feelings are constantly flowing inside us, confusing us, burning us, making us think what if? Its hard to ignore it, and even harder to get mind off it once it strikes us. It pulls down your mind from the current moment into some other place. Deep inside we know its time to leave these places far behind, but we never can. When we see someone we once loved, we get the feeling of love, betrayal, hatred, tears, anger all mixed up. A nameless feeling arises, forcing you to cry in anger with love. When you climb a mountain you almost fell off, again you get mixed feelings of fear, hope. Even when meeting friends, we can have nameless feelings mixed of anger, love. We cry out in desperation but there is no one to understand and comfort. We try to find a solution or the source of these feelings, but end up with fustration. It burns up one's ambitions and takes away all joy in life.

So, to all these nameless feelings, I cant deal with in my life; you've left me broken, bleeding. You've made me cry, you've made me feel the shame, you've made me angry and you've made me feel the pain. I keep asking why can't I replace feelings I find really hard to find? Now that its done, its time I find a way too look in between these dark clouds and if I don't its time to look whats in between the line because all I wanna do is get with you and make the pain go away.

Expectations??? Is it Good

In life we have to go through many challenges and obstacles. We strive to fulfill our expectations, and also other's expectations. The sad part of life is it may not always be fulfilled. A wonderful gift may not be wrapped as you expect.
Expectations brings on pressure, the forceful need to perform. Everyone is good at something, but attempt for perfection is what spoils it. Not everyone can achieve everything, but not everyone is ready to accept that. Life is a struggle, your parents expect things from you, your teachers expects you to perform, your friends expect few things, even the society will expect things from you and on top of that our never satisfying heart. The worst part of expectation is the grief and pain that comes when we don't fulfill it.
Every expectation has a source, and that source pressurizes us to perform else punishments or consequences will overtake the emotional state of a person. A student is expected to score every time they write an exam. Parents and teachers pressurizes them, and if they fail they get emotionally stressed and go on to drinking, smoking, or drugs. They even go on to attempt suicide. That's what expectations and pressure can bring to human being, its not the case only for students, for every human role, there are lots of expectations. Son, father, Daughter, Mother, Staff, Boss, every role a human can have. "Feeling like one has not lived up to his or her high expectations or those of another" is one of the major cause of suicide. Is human life the price to pay for expectations??? You either loose yourself or kill yourself when you fail to live up to expectations.
So, expectation is it just a way to hurt yourself? Well its better to have a hope to live rather than expectations, it certainly makes shoulders lighter. Also I believe a person can perform better if he is allowed space and freedom, rather than pressure and expectations. When we have expecatations, a part of mind is always stuck on thinking the outcome and the need to succeed, where as a free mind can work with out fear and they can think awesome ideas.
So, I guess we've all heard " If you expect nothing from anybody, you’re never disappointed". Well its not realistic in my case, cause we humans will always have expectations in life, thus we can say there were two ways to be happy: improve your reality, or lower your expectations. Expectations will always be part of life, whether we like it or not, its essential we use it as a strength rather than weakness. When you don't meet your expectations, don't be a whiner, just accept the reality and just remember how awesome you are.
Life is beautiful, if you just let it run. Work smart, never back down, keep trying, keep challanging, keep working, lower the expecatations, accept reality and try to live for the moment.

Here are few cases:
Academic pressure makes kids suicidal - Times Of India
http://articles.timesofindia.indiatimes.com/2012-01-14/parenting/30447282_1_vtu-visvesvaraya-technological-university-engineering-colleges

A suicide case in Sait
http://www.deccanherald.com/content/49764/mba-student-commits-suicide.html

Why People Suicide
http://www.suicide.org/suicide-causes.html